Life is an ever changing journey. There are no do overs. Although, once one becomes an adult, you wish there were. However, than you think about all the things that would not have happened if you did get a do over. There are also the times where if you were able to have a do over, maybe things would have been completely different.
Last year I was finally diagnosed with Depression, among other mental ailments. This has been a battle I've been facing all of my life. I often wonder what would have happened if I would have actually admitted some of the depression symptoms I experienced in my childhood. How would my life be different than it is today?
But yet at the same time, I don't want or change anything about my past that would take my son away from me. While there are certain parts of my life that I would change in a heart beat if I had a do over, most of the time I would chose not to because of my precious little boy.
It was because of him that I finally started to seek some sort of treatment for whatever it was that I was feeling at the time. I started seeking treatment long before I divorced my ex-husband.
Eventually I will tell what prompted me to finally seek the treatment I really needed. But I do believe this is enough for now.
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